I haven’t always put my trust in Jesus

There have been times where I have not trusted in Jesus.  It’s hard not having control over something that is so dear to your heart.

 “Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding” Proverbs 3:5. 

During my second pregnancy I worried, A LOT. This pregnancy was as normal as could be, but because I lost my first child I was constantly scared and filled with worry.  Any little thing that I thought might be happening brought so many “what ifs” into my mind.

I didn’t cast my cares on Him and put my full trust in Him for my situation.  God wants us to cast our cares on Him.  “Casting all your care upon him; for he careth for you” 1 Peter 5:7.  God loves us with a deep love, one that will not run out.  He wants to take care of all of our needs and wants, worries and anxiety.  He doesn’t want us to loose sleep over things He has already taken care of.  But because we can’t see what is going on “behind the curtain”, we start to worry if God really knows what He is doing.  God wants to carry our burdens so that we don’t get weighed down with worry and anxiety.  “Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest” Matthew 11:28.

And which of you by worrying can add one cubit to his stature? If you then are not able to do the least, why are you anxious for the rest?” Luke 12:25-26.  If we cannot make ourselves taller by worrying and dwelling on it, what makes us believe we can accomplish anything else by worrying?

You will never forget…..and that’s okay.

You will never forget how you felt in that time of loneliness and despair and confusion.  And that is okay.

Those feelings are there so you can now help others and you can let them know it is going to be okay.  You made it through the trial, and they will too.  You will not forget the pain you felt, but God can heal your broken heart; the hole you now have can be filled overflowing with His love, peace, and joy.

Arriving to the hospital pregnant, and then leaving a few days later with no baby is a hard thing to describe.  I literally felt empty.  I was now a fat blob of a person, with all the signs of giving birth, but with no baby.  I bled, I cramped, my milk came in.  The question that I had was “now what?”.  I had a piece missing, but I found my peace in Jesus.

When you see a loved one struggling with something, you get an urge to want to help them and lift them up and do everything for them.  That’s how God feels about us, his children, but times a million.  It is good to turn to a friend in time of need, but sometimes we turn to them more often than we should.  Lets start practicing turning to the One who can do all things.  Your situation or problem is not too big OR small for God to deal with.  He created the cosmos.  He can certainly answer your prayer.

Whatever it is you keep trying to fix, or “handle”, whatever you keep worrying about, just give it to Jesus.  He knows everything, and can do all things.  I promise He will do a better job than you ever imagined.  Put your trust in Jesus and never look back.  You won’t regret it.

It is not an easy thing to do, but the more we “exercise” our trust with the small things, the easier it will get with the big things. 

Jesus help me to always put my trust in you when I am going through a trial, or have something weighing heavy on my mind.  I don’t need to stress myself out over something I know you have control over.  Help me to trust in your plan and to know that “ …all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose” Romans 8:28.  You are my provider and shield, and always there for me.

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2 thoughts on “I haven’t always put my trust in Jesus

  1. Thank you for sharing your story. I am sure it will help alot of people. My son & his wife lost their first baby in July and I have prayed for them as they have walked a slow road to healing. I am so glad they have Jesus, how would we deal with losses like this without Him? xx

    1. I don’t know how I would go through life without Him! I’m so sorry for your son and daughter, I will be praying for them.

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